QueenBee

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

Posts

  • I was

    I was...what was I?

    I was happy.

    I was free.

    I had such a rush of a year

    That I forgot...everything else.

    Full steam ahead

    Days blurring

    Like a train.

    Plowing through.

    I warned myself.

  • Did I really?

    You said

    I seemed relaxed.

    Not tense,

    Like I feel,

    Constantly.

    Not curled up into a tight little ball

    Against the world.

    You said 

    I seemed loose.

    I don't feel loose

  • Guilty Pleasures

    Guilty pleasures.

    I know they are.

    I know I shouldn't.

    I know all this.

    Do I listen?

    No.

    Have I ever listened?

    No.

    Checking the doc.

    Not active anymore.

    Hadn't been

  • Anymore

    I don't know you anymore.

    I learned this

    Today.

    Gone is the silly boy

    As tall as I was

    That purple beanie obsession

    We all shared -

    Tank tops in summer, Crocs all year round,

    Not anymore.

  • Bari Incredible

    You stand up

    To take a solo.

    Before, I've always smiled

    At it.

    Seeing you solo

    Is incredible -

    Just watching you -

    I may not know you,

    But I know you

    By how you play.

Loves

  • This is really goodbye

    I've grieved this relationship a million times, a million ways, yet it was always somehow easier because I knew you would come back. I knew how to play my cards so I could be assured that you were hooked as much as I am. 

  • One More Time

    for one more time 
    i will sit in the same place 
    as I have for so long 

    for one more time
    i will be the people 
    i've grown to know 
    love and hate

  • Plans

    Planning

    Every day

    Every chance that is given

    Scheduling

    Organizing RSVPs

    Bugging people to respond.

    Talking to the caterer -

    We can have bourekas after all -

    And studying

  • That smile

    I play for a lot of things.

    That smile is one of them.

    When we're doing something right

    And you take fast four into two

    And you're smiling and grinning and in full control

    And we're not falling apart

  • A Girl Can Dream

    When I saw you

    No, not when I 

    saw you

    But when I 

    saw you.

    That was when I knew that there was something among me that needed you

    always

    to be 

    near me