My world is different 

A new place 

A new name

Yet still just the same as last year

Still the same crushing sorrow

Still the same grief as last year

I step out into a cool summer night 

The air fills my lungs and soothes my anxiety riddled body

I walk out and feel the calm breeze on my torn up skin, wrapping around me like it's comforting my wounds

I've grieved this relationship a million times, a million ways, yet it was always somehow easier because I knew you would come back. I knew how to play my cards so I could be assured that you were hooked as much as I am.