Am I doing this right?

Am I doing this right? 
Is there some rule book for college that my mom never made me read?

Was it lost in translation because I was never popular? 
Or maybe because my parents had stricter rules?

When did these people learn how to drink, party dance like there is no tomorrow.

When did these people learn how to flirt, kiss, go to second third, fourth base.

I feel like I am missing something that I should know already,

After all I am turning 20 next year.

Is it wrong that I don’t want to drink and that drunk people still scare me,

Am I weak for not being brave and wearing that revealing top because I don’t think I can ever be “sexy”.

Did I gain less confidence than I thought,

Because I won’t even buy that cute shear dress in the first place,

Why does college feel like high school fears all over again.