Body

Body 

My body 

the one I don't really like anymore 

maybe I use to like her 

when I was younger and no one really cared 

if you had stomach fat or things that jiggled or a flat nose

when I was younger she was just a body that kept me alive.

I guess as I got older I started hating her

the way she looks in tight shorts 

and how her stomach forms a B when sitting

or how those old cute shorts can't fit anymore.

I sometimes

now that I'm in college that is

wish I brought my scale so I could check 

I bet I've gone over 125

all the overeating because if someone puts food on my plate 

I have to eat it otherwise I'm being a jerk.

I know I am "small"

one time a girl called me skinny

but that is the last thing I think when looking in the mirror

this is the third time today

but nothing has changed.