Empty Words

Sitting
looking
at instructions
that I don't know
how to follow
Itching to start
but not understanding
what I'm doing
Lifting my pencil
and writing
vomiting
meaningless
words onto the page
I don't know
how I'm doing it
I'm just going
through the motions
just getting through it
alive
I just write what I know
that the teachers want to see
not really
understanding 
what I write 
just using keywords
freedom
journey
faith
love

things teachers
eat right up
Things that'll get me
a good grade
And when I get it back
it's covered in notes 
good job
great point
excellent work
you are so insightful
but they mean nothing
and I scoff 
because 
I cut the corners
not really cheating
but not really honest
None of it's honest
really
they just tell us
and we do exactly
what they say
following the steps
going through the motions
vomiting
empty words

Crescent_Moon

VT

19 years old