In the face of fear

I have always known

I was never the one for you

Never pretty enough 

Never kind enough

A little to silly and a little to me

It broke my heart that I changed myself

For you and your ideals

It still breaks my heart

That I still change myself

To be more like her

The girl who is perfect

Or seems so

I don’t understand why I am less then her

And the anger slips in 

Yet I have grown and am growing

I am learning 

How to stay myself 

In the face of anger 

In the face of fear 

And staring into your eyes