Fearless

it looms above my head
it weighs upon my shoulders
it squirms inside my chest

constantly in motion
my hands twisting at my hair
my leg bouncing quickly
everything quivering

I ball my hands into fists
trying to hold myself together
as if this would keep me
from bursting apart

I am full of fear
it flows through my veins
I am saturated in it

if I could just let it go
unclench my fists
and burst apart

the fear would leave me
dripping from my pores
trickling away
forever

then maybe I could stand
on the edge of the cliff
and stare downwards
without trembling

maybe I could write 
with complete confidence
and not erase my words
a thousand times

maybe I could be heard
when I shouted
instead of 
shutting up

the day I figure out
how to stop being afraid of failure
that would be the day 
my adventure began

I would climb
to the peak
of every mountain

I would lift a pen
instead 
of a pencil

I would fearlessly
raise my voice
and not back down

I would be
an adventurer
I would be
fearless