I honestly don't know what I'm doing

I don't really know what I'm doing.

But I felt like I had to write something, 

so here it is;

here is my 

weak attempt at writing something

that could make somebody else feel a bit better.

Because I don't know what I'm doing.

But it feels like everybody else does.

And I don't exactly know why

everybody else in the world

seems to have their lives figured out

while I'm still just a jumbled mess of

this v/s that.

Why does one person know

exactly what they want?

Or exactly what they should do to achieve that?

Of course, 

I have an outline of what I want.

I want to be an author,

I want to go to NYU,

I want to have fun.

But how does everybody already know what to do

and how to do it,

while I'm still struggling with

figuring it all out?

I have no idea what I'm doing

or how I'm doing it.

I feel like I'm being left behind.

I feel like I'm the only one that doesn't know

what they're doing.

So how does everybody else know?

Can someone tell me?

Can somebody tell me so I'm not the one left behind?

Can somebody tell me so I know what's going on?

I honestly don't know what I'm doing.