I let him consume me

I struggle to write because I don't want to say the truth. 

That I fucked up and said yes,

I want this.

I am scared because it won't work.

That I fell for his eyes, 

his heart and his voice.

When I knew all along, 

that it will never work,

can never work.

It was more like a dream, 

And I still can not believe he meant them.

How could someone like him

want someone like me?

Even just for a moment in time,

even just for a day, a night. 

Those words softened every barrier until they fell,

those hands tip-toeing on my face, 

How could I let my fears mistrust this boy? 

A boy who bravely took my heart into his own,

and then let that same heart have to mend on its own.