Maybe Its Just Me

Maybe its just me but...

I want good grades

I want to do well

I want straight A's

I want to get all my work done; I really do...

But I shut down...

I close myself off from the world and can't focus...

I look at my grades, and I want to cry because deep down I am trying, I swear...

I stare at my homework as if I am looking at a puzzle that I have fixed a thousand times, yet I still can't figure it out

I know what I'm doing so why can't I do it?

When I get a bad grade, I act like it doesn't bother me

But all I do is compare myself to others and I know, I know I'm not smart enough, or confident enough, I know that its my fault and I want to scream, but I just sit in silents wondering where I went wrong...