Missed Experiences

I never thought I'd cry
over the thought of a test
that I would never take
but here I am
sobbing 
because I will never
take the band test
I feel stupid
I should be happy
but it's just another
normal thing
that has been taken 
away from me
There are experiences
that I will never have
because of this disease
I was gonna see a play
but now I have to wait
at least it isn't canceled
just postponed 
until 2022
I had so many plans
I was gonna 
learn to drive
but now I can't even
get my permit
So excuse me
while I sob 
over the experiences 
that I will never have