Not Always Happy

She’s always happy

I know that’s what they think

She wouldn’t hurt a fly 

That, too

Sometimes they don’t think

That it’s hard for me too

That I don’t always want to be the nice

Quiet

Ever patient

The person they think I am

I get angry

But a grit my teeth

And ignore it.

I want to punch people in the face

Instead I keep on doing my work

Sometimes I want to be the person

Who punches someone in the face

Cause they deserve it.

People don’t know that

People wouldn’t think that.

It’s true.

I’m not always happy 

Cause no one is

No matter if there is  a smile on my face

Sometimes it’s fake

Sometimes I get annoyed 

But pretend I’m not

And get through the day.

That’s the kind of person I am.

A survivor.