Scared

I am just too much, 

too loud,

too weird,

too open and honest,

too kind, 

just too everything. 

Talk about my emotions, 

so smart about who I am, 

yet still scared to reach out when I need it the most. 

I should know how to ask for help.

I mean, I am almost 20, 

I should be able to handle myself,

crazy huge feelings included.