Sickly sweet midnight thoughts

You're more real in each photo
each video
maybe you're gone in those too
but we can't tell
a sunshine smile
tells only what it wants to
each reminder of your absence 
is sickly sweet
I want them to stop
or go on forever
with each whimper 
I feel you leap farther into the sky
silence feels empty even though it has always
been that way
one of my strings has snapped
you took it from me
becasue you felt it was the only way
It wasn't 
And now you're gone
I want you back