Skinny

I have been skinny for
as long as I can remember
I know I'm skinny because
people have always told me so
You're so skinny
You're so tiny
Oh my goodness,
you're so small

Almost every person I've met
has said remarked about it
and it's just part of my life
but now I'm scared to lose it
scared that that will change
because it's something
that has always been 
hammered into my brain
You're so skinny
You're so tiny
Oh my goodness,
you're so small

Skinny has become part
of my personal identity
and I don't know what 
would happen if I were
to lose that part of myself
You're so skinny
You're so tiny
Oh my goodness,
you're so small

These words are engraved
on the back of my brain
a seemingly crucial part
of my identity
even though it isn't
it really really isn't
but I can't erase it
will never be able to erase it
You're so skinny
You're so tiny
Oh my goodness,
you're so small

I'm just trying to live up
to everybody's expectations
and my own expectations 
that I put on myself 
I must be skinny
I must be tiny
Oh my goodness,
I must be small

It's okay
I am learning 
that skinny is not
a defining part of who I am
I'm taking baby steps
toward being truly free
of my own expectations
I don't need to be skinny
I don't need to be tiny
Oh my goodness,
I don't need to be small


 

Crescent_Moon

VT

19 years old