I'm ok now.

I never really had a life. Not truly. 
Not a life of my own.
I was always chasing after someone else.
My life wasn’t for me,
No.

I was just a background character.
An extra, if you will. 
Always the people pleaser, never the one pleased. 
Always the joker, never laughing.
There was nothing to laugh at. 

I don’t miss living.

I didn’t want to die.
I don’t want to live either.

I’m ok now.
I feel better.
I just float.
Float in the black nothingness.

I had a choice.
So, I’m ok now. 

I’m just here.
In the dark. 
No longer searching for anything.
No longer looking for somebody to help.
Just existing.

And I’m ok with that.

I’m ok now.