IceGalaxy

i want you to know
i hate being your ex
i hate how i constantly remember how i left
i hate how i could never say anything against you
i hate how scared i was to do one simple thing
i hate how i acted
but i love you

they've always said
"you're 13
you don't know love
you're too young to experience love"
but 
they've been married 37 years
they fight every day
their child comes to school with long sleeves during summer

i'll be floating on a cloud
swimming with sparkling seals
singing with golden angles from hell as my backing vocals
initiating a temorary christmas truce with my anxiety
and someone'll say something-
idk what

multiply that by 100
thats how far apart we really are
5 feet apart
multiply that by a million
thats how far apart we feel-

well
thats how far apart 
i feel from you
now


fuck it. 
 

hello.
you don't know me. 
you probably will never know me.
but i have some things that i want to say
and i want you to listen to me. our
time is running out and
we will soon be stranded
thinking of the past

give me the sun-
i dont care if i get burned.
give me the wind-
i dont care if my hair gets tossed around.
give me the clear skies-
i dont care if they're clouded.
give me the oceans-
i dont care if the salt stings my lips.