JordanSara

I should have known
that this would go wrong

that you wouldn't be able to
to leave me

I should have know
that you would shatter me

that I wouldn't ever
be the same

I tell myself I didn't know

I used to hate silence
the unending weight
spiraling into the abyss
with no aim
no goal
and nothing to be gained.
For years I filled my life with sound
music and meaningless conversations,
all to fill the hole

Keep your eyes openI am too trusting, I blinkRemember to smileI forget every timeStay strong, the brave are kingsI am weak, a slaveBe beautifulI am too uglyTell the truthI feel like a liarLie about your feelings
Lie about your beauty

How can you measure 
the depth of a
heart?

How can you measure 
time?

How is it that you
love me?
How is it that one
brazen, broken
conflicted, and graceless
could deserve someone as

The oiled surface of the stand
 showing each glossy glint, a subtle river
dripping infinite varieties
of the ways your life could go
the ebb and flow of choices
but this is only the decor of your life
the support

Why does it always feel
like you are 
leaving?

I will bathe myself in gold to keep you
learn every language
if it will just let me understand you
but yet it feels as though our continents have shifted