Reaching for air
I keep reaching
for something I know I can't have
But I decide
To waste my energy anyway
All I want is for
you to look at me
The way you look at him
I'm searching for that
To hold on to
I keep reaching
for something I know I can't have
But I decide
To waste my energy anyway
All I want is for
you to look at me
The way you look at him
I'm searching for that
To hold on to
Childhood,
The state of being a child
Childhood,
A phase of innocence and immaturity
Childhood,
A period of pure laughter and unadulterated joy
It's tearing me apart
Your words echoing in my head
Your eyes shining in my memory
Im scared of you but it's because of me
I never liked myself
It is a wandering
sort of day
(wandering mind
wandering feet
wandering eyes)
before I find the camera.
It looks old enough
that I wonder
how it still works.
lines on the road paralyze me redefine me reignite a sort of otherworldly longing in me orange blurs into yellow blurs into black lines blink in and out of a parallel existence / red was never a factor in this but you could never chalk red into yo
I always thought
We’d be together
For so much longer.
I thought that
I’d finally found
Someone who would
Love me for a while.
Not just until
She got jealous.
I was fine
I am an enigma; forever stepping in front of mirrors attempting to angle myself in the perfect position to be loved; always making myself smaller than I seem in order to be seen.
I can't take back what I did.
But I want you to know that you weren't a game to me, that is just my love.
It's sick and twisted and dark and suffocating
But it's not meant to hurt you
What you gave me everyday
Was never really love.
It was toxic, poison,
You stained my blood black.
All of your words
I realize were all lies.
Even the ring on my finger
I open it
Relishing the new-book scent
Hoping
I can forget again.
Take me away
To foreign lands
Where peace can be found
I squiggle in bed like a fish
In my tight time capsule I wish
For sleep to sing me
A melody dreamy
When suddenly
Swish! Swish! Swish!
Her eyes light up the galaxy
They shine like golden stars,
And on her face a rainbow peeks
Beyond her bleeding scars.
Atop the hill of vanquished beasts