Orpheus
My whole life I have been trying to tell a story so beautiful that the world would fall in love with me.
That is why befriended words and stage lights.
That is why I watch the details of the world
My whole life I have been trying to tell a story so beautiful that the world would fall in love with me.
That is why befriended words and stage lights.
That is why I watch the details of the world
Remember the girl?
She’s in second grade,
Maybe
Blond brown curls
Blue green eyes.
She’s sitting on the top metal pole of the fence
Chipped green paint
As it turns out
humans always
always
learn the hard way,
can never take the safe route.
We're that stupid, yes
but without human stupidity we wouldn't know about the pineapple
The gears click
spin
twirl into place
the momentum of thousands of dreams
swinging
gliding
leaping
across the vast emptiness we call home.
The dreams
along with hopes
fears
A childhood obsession, sure.
That's how it started.
But it's all I am -
It's who I am -
It's the deepest
Truest
Version of myself I could possibly be.
The notebook.
Stats and tracking
I will not shave my legs
not because I am against it
but because being myself feels like my own act
of rebellion
I will not quiet down
let the world hear my pride and excitement
but I will not shout
When you get an eyelash in your eye
a wish will fall in with it
each one holds memories
stained with the makeup of your life
if the memory is tainted
with trauma, fear, or pain
The Glass Statue Girl
looks at the world with eyes of shards
moves through life like a river
her figure sluicing across paths of people
who see a clear accessory
The Glass Statue Girl
I can talk to myself forever
when there's no one else around and it's just me in my head
we have fun
I can do any topic you want, come on
pick a card
pick a card
pick a face
The door hums as it opens
I oiled it so it wouldn't creak on my entrance
no automated voice announces me
or where I am
or when
I built this ship of spare parts I collected
from people I knew
I remember
in third grade
we had a group chat
and everyone was talking to each other on their school emails -
this was back when the school hadn't removed G-chat yet -
and you were spamming the chat
What is it like
to have an equal
someone who is your other half of you
who you care for as much as you care for yourself, and more
who you would do anything for
who you would say