QueenBee

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

Posts

  • I wish

    I wish I could be you.

    Running to your room

    Plugging your ears

    Whenever there's a scary part of a movie

    And coming back out in time

    To see the happy ending -

    Closing your eyes

    Covering your face

  • This man

    This man

    With a family who loves him

    But can't help him

    Because he needs to help himself first

    This man

    Drunk on hatred for himself

    For this world

    "Hopeless", they all say

    With their eyes

  • Grateful

    I am grateful.

    Grateful that three no-longer-kids,
    Grown-up,

    Jobs-and-girlfriends-and-college boys

    Are there for me

    Have my back

    Even though we haven’t talked for a while

    Even though we live hours away

  • Too fast

    Every time I think I didn’t care

    Every time I think you did nothing to me

    But I can feel you

    Creeping around who I’ve become

    In my relationships

    Beyond you -

    I didn’t know how to do this,

  • Family from far away

    Here, for the first time in years

    With family I haven’t known

    But still, family.

    And I like it here.

    The first vacation

    I’ve actually enjoyed

    So far away from my own home

    Which usually I hate

  • First

    I'm not going to lie,

    I don't care -

    I never really did.

    I didn't last year

    And I still don't.

    But.

    It does give me that

    Teeny

    Tiny

    Itty

    Bitty

    Little

    Bit of

Loves

  • Mixed Feelings

    I am sad

    sad to not have weekly meetings with you

    I am nervous

    nervous of what I'll be doing this weekend

    I am excited

    excited to show off, to show my friends and family this tradition

    I am apprehensive

  • Grateful

    I am grateful.

    Grateful that three no-longer-kids,
    Grown-up,

    Jobs-and-girlfriends-and-college boys

    Are there for me

    Have my back

    Even though we haven’t talked for a while

    Even though we live hours away

  • Young love

    I remember that warm summer night,

    we argued about who could jump farther off the swings,

    we were only 14.

     

    It down poured,

    they didn't set the fireworks off,

    you didn't care,

    neither did I.

  • Everything

    I have the chance to do anything

    not quite everything

    but many things

    and I don't know what I want to do.

    I could be a writer

    or start my own company

    or be an Einstein-level mathematician

  • Stereotypes

    I hate stereotypes

    and the heavy, constant smell of perfume as I walk by my classmates wearing too much lip gloss

    but I like dressing myself up

    and I do care about my appearance