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I think
I think you make me really happy
I think it’s sort of all-consuming
I think I want to be with you every second
Of every day
I think maybe what keeps me up at night
Is replaying you
Replaying us
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Together
You’re different
With all of us
Versus just me.
You’re different
With a whole crazy friend group
Than you are when it’s us chilling in your basement watching Stranger Things -
People
People want things from me
This incredible group of people
They want me to mediate
To laugh
To help them with x, y, and z
They want me to come with them
Pulling me in different directions constantly
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Childhood obsession
A childhood obsession, sure.
That's how it started.
But it's all I am -
It's who I am -
It's the deepest
Truest
Version of myself I could possibly be.
The notebook.
Stats and tracking
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College and other future plans and maybes
When we talked about college
Four years away for you
Five for me
You want to go to MIT
"Math", you said
4.7% acceptance rate
Buddy, trust me, if anyone can make it it's you and that's not even bias,
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Punching waves
My therapist told me not to punch waves
I think it was supposed to be a metaphor
I don't punch waves
I throw myself into them
Relentlessly
Until I can't feel the pain
Loves
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You are not forgotten
When I was younger, I wasfriends with her son
They moved a lot, especially after
The divorce
But we still made time to see each other
We grew apart but
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Anticipating
I don't know what this is
whether it's summer really sinking in
or if it's something else
something more
something worse.
I don't want to turn into this
a puddle of negative feelings and boredom.
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Self-conscious and self-judgmental
Everyone always thinks that people act a certain way to please the people around them
to code switch to what everyone else would want
to blend in
and that's what I do, too
except most of what I do
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Orpheus
My whole life I have been trying to tell a story so beautiful that the world would fall in love with me.
That is why I befriended words and stage lights.
That is why I watch the details of the world
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Eye Wish
When you get an eyelash in your eye
a wish will fall in with it
each one holds memories
stained with the makeup of your life
if the memory is tainted
with trauma, fear, or pain
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A small, insignificant memory
I remember
in third grade
we had a group chat
and everyone was talking to each other on their school emails -
this was back when the school hadn't removed G-chat yet -
and you were spamming the chat