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Stay
I saw a photo of our band from last year
our Wind Ensemble
the intern we all fell in love with
the conductor we adore
everyone was together
and I just...
gah.
I wanted to yell STAY
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Looking back at my photos on an old walkman at 9 p.m.
Sack race
thirteenth birthday party
start of seventh grade.
My two BFFs since kindergarten,
the one that slipped in from fourth grade,
the two I met in fifth -
then of course my party girlfriends
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Smiling into my pillow
How lucky am I?
To feel loved?
In a household and a family and a school that makes me feel not worth it
not good enough
and I found someone outside of it all who loves me?
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Fourteen - expectations
You get older
nothing gets easier.
Everything only gets worse.
I have mountains of expectations
over fourteen years of my life
it feels like so much
it's so little
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The value of a Christmas gift to people who aren't family
I want to get you a gift
for Christmas
because
I want you to know that you're special to me.
And it really is that simple -
but I don't know what to get you
The age-old dilemma
something cute?
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Growing up in 6/8
My band conductor has always said that 6/8 plays itself -
it does.
It's easy to just play through but not if you think too much.
I grew up in 6/8
my life plays itself
yes I make mistakes
Loves
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Her Post
I loved her post
Clicked that red heart button
That broke more hearts than it mended
I saw the picture that she edited nonstop
That she filtered
Until that girl on the screen wasn’t
Her
At
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thresholds
take me out.
knock me over the head with a baseball bat and drag my unconscious form
beneath the shadowed wall. into a wardrobe. a hobbit hole.
wherever you can think to put me, do so. i want out.
i want to make my mark
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Jerry and Marky
Jerry looks out peacefully at his friend Marky drowning again. He’s in the water. The first time he was out there, it was when his mom got sick for good, and he stopped seeing his shrink.
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hardcore crushing
what do the wings write, light in the sky
tales told to the whistling, empty guy
stellar moon that turns eyes hibiscus pink
darling dark hair, shining star, who slips his hand away in the morning
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Life goes on
it was bound to happen eventually
the death of a best friend
but now
now is a bad time
on hannukkah
what kind of a miracle is that?
now im miserable
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rejection
I've always
been scared
of rejection
so I
don't do
anything
i hold
myself back
from things
others do
i've always
been scared
of rejection
so how