on the night that you broke your eyes open,
cried into candy packets you found at the petrol station smelling like gasoline and regret
in your still-standing baby teeth like slabs of sugared marble there were
s e v e n t e e n
letters. and seventeen of them were to
(you?me?you?me?youmeyoumeyoumeyoumeyoumeyoume)
,
lifetimes bottled up in the sea glass you found on the sand at 2 years; you wanted your hair to grow long;
past lives like sour cola bottles you chewed up and left
in the corner of the playroom with your nose all
blood
y
from the fights you thought you could win
at preschool
play-doh and multiplication tables, brainscape modeled by the people you
(thought you)
trusted.
later you would stand on the sidewalk after school with your non-existent airpods s c r e a m i n g
and dump your Bs into the drain and tuck gum underneath your tongue like a secret 'cause it was,
then
one-seven with your hair grown out like you always wanted it to be and and
and now your car has run out of gas.
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