sarcasimish

don't be selfish you said
was it selfish when I put you above me
when I was broken yet, I sought to help you
don't be so clingy you said
is it clingy to want to know that you still care

drip drip
dripping white and red
drip drip
tripping me back to reality
drip drip 
​you got me coming for you
drip drip
take back all my hues
drip drip
sluggish eyes
drip drip
blood, sweat, and tears
 

I cry
I curl up
and time stops
until I'm trapped... 
totally
captured 
I want to stop
I want to smile
and hide
but I can't
I want to keep it in
and leave me to be
but I know 

Beep. beep. beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep... 
your life stops,
it flat lines and moves in a constant line,
you were alive but then it stopped,
it all just stops,
just like that,
but if we're being honest,

stop it. stop it all. stop.
stop the silence, 
the numbing feeling,
the thoughts driving me insane,
stop the flat line that is somehow called my life,
stop that constant note, 
make it dance, 

It creeps upon you,
it's nowhere and then it's everywhere, 
You don't realize it's there until it's too late.
When it all consumes you
It suffocates you
yet, you don't feel anything