It's Time

I’m fine.

I know I’m crying,

but that’s normal.

 

I’m just fine.

I feel like I’m dying,

but who doesn’t?

 

I’ll be just fine

 

is all I need to tell myself.

My past is proof

I will survive.

 

Sometimes I just need a little sympathy

And someone to help me believe in tomorrow,

That there’s something worth all this sorrow,

And that something is me.

 

So I take my stand, turn up my favorite tune,

And run straight into the spirit-sucking storm.

I dare the darkness to bring its doom

knowing grace will come in its wildest form.

 

Because the hour has come

where I accept I can’t be what they want.

Because it’s time

To do what I should have done from the start.

 

It’s time to be who I need me to be

 

 

Posted in response to the challenge PAST CONTESTS – Teenager: In Writing.

JayJay

VT

16 years old

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