I used to have it all figured out.
Schedules were organized chaos.
The beloved clock in the corner of my room,
was my gauge.
Told me when I was late, on time.
I was used to this system,
I listened to the clock.
Always.
Never failing to meet my deadlines.
I did what it told me to do.
I soared above the endless guidelines and instructions.
I listened to the clock.
Tick, tick, tick, tick.
I listened too much. For too long.
It became tiring.
Overwhelming.
Exhausting.
One day, the clock stopped working.
Its hands still.
Reading 3:17 am.
And that is when, after so much time and effort
put into being constantly productive,
I started to feel weightless.
The burden of time carefully lifted off my shoulders.
I was no longer the bold and confident sky,
Instead, I was more like a hushed lake,
flowing with gravity's pull rather than my own will.
I merely reflected the vibrant sky,
as it was the one to make all the decisions.
The one with the upper hand.
And, as I fell deeper into the water,
I realized that the world was only
darker and colder down there.
And then, physically and mentally constricted,
I could no longer spread my wings.
I begun to miss my clock, deeply.
The one still stuck at 3:17 am
It was the one thing that kept me busy, on track.
I longed for the chaotic organization.
I wanted my lost feeling of belonging back.
But, this time, I knew I'd hold it close.
Never let it break, as my clock did.
I hoped I could become the sky again,
but first I needed to swim up to the surface
of this lake,
and relearn
how to fly.
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