Anonymous

Dear Anonymous,

Last year, you rejected Charlie about 3 times,

All in band class, all times my fault.

The first time, Mel asks you to guess who likes you.

You guess me, and obviously, I say no.

Yet I saw a look of rejection strewn across your face.

I then realized I liked you. 

I didn’t want to tell Charlie, heck, she didn’t deserve to know that.

So I helped her try to talk to you,

I know, you didn’t seem too interested in her,

But it was worth a shot.

I remember when we were watching a movie in band,

You lie on the floor, comfortably close to me.

You start to peel a sticker off the computer,

And I push your hand away to flatten the sticker,

Except our hands stay there for a second too long.

Do you still think of that time, too?

The day Charlie realized I liked you

 was the day I found out you had a girlfriend.

You had a girlfriend. 

Honestly, I couldn't believe it, but it's fine.

I’ll just back off, hide away, like I always will.

I remember the day you found out that I like you.

You weren’t grossed out or happy,

Just existing. 

Mel asked if you were still dating anyone,

You said no.

Was it because I like you?

I stopped trying after that.

Honestly, I don’t even know why.

It could be because every time I try, you brush me off.

Like I’m trying too hard.

Can’t you realize I’m not trying hard enough?

One day, you are happy to see me, 

I call you strong after you literally bent a mechanical pencil. 
You blush. Was it because you like me?

Or is it just because you were embarrassed?

Other days, I don’t even exist to you. 

You just give me weird looks.
The counselor tells me it's just because you are

 ‘processing my emotions towards you’

I don’t believe a second of it.

When will you notice me?
Am I not trying to get with you as much as I should be?

Or do you just not like me? 

And you just won't tell me?

From,

Anonymous.