Confessions of the Wounded

I breathed in fire and forgot to spit it out
Now it's churning in my veins 
Like a fire dragon
Making me powerful
So I'm saying things that you haven't silenced
You've silenced your problems but I know you still see them
I know you see racism and police violence
I know you see cruelty and climate change
I know you don't want it to be real
Trust me, I wish it wasn't.
But it is.
So we have to work together.
And if you won't save this planet and society with me
Then who are you?
If you don't care about your home then
What do you care about?
Just give me a straight up answer
I hate lies.
I hate drama
I hate falseness.
I hate when she hurts you and you stay.
I hate needy people
She annoys me and I think you feel it too
But I can never tell if you ask for her
Because you pull people in and out like a braid 
And I'm always trying to figure out which side of the mirror I'm on.
Somedays I hold your hand and laugh 
And other days I'm pounding on the glass screaming
And you peacefully walk away
Not seeing the splinters forming from my bloodied knuckles.
Okay maybe I'm a little bit envious
And even though I'm an introvert
But there's a certain loneliness that comes with being all alone.
That's when
I look at technology too much
I admit it
But sometimes you need a break where you don't have to think
Where you don't have to participate in other people's lives
Where you can laugh and laugh and feel better for a few minutes.
My problem is 
I never forget names and faces
So I know too many people 
And not enough stories.
I know I said I hate lying
But sometimes I lie to make all those people feel better
Or I apologize when I'm anything but sorry
I confess
I'm guilty
Class dismissed