Fear of the heart

i'm afraid of tomorrow 
as it creeps slowly along 
like snail it moves 
leaving a trail of past 
failures and mistakes 
edging closer and closer 

i'm afraid of my soul 
for what i feel 
should not be how i am 
perfection of the heart 
a mere line in the book 
of my life 

i'm afraid of the thoughts i have 
when i feel like i no longer 
am myself 
or i no longer am 
the person you once knew 

i'm afraid of forgetting 
that one that i will be old 
and my hair will go gray 
and i will sit on the porch 
rocking to the slow beat 
of the heart that i once tried to ignore
for i thought it tempted me too far 


and i am ready 
that one day i will stand in your shoes 
and live my life 
that i seek and i will find 
peace and contentment 
and calm and beauty would be upon the world 
like the times before 
 

meandpaul

MN

14 years old

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  • Yesterday

    yesterday 
    to you i was nine years old 
    with a black hurley hat 
    that never left my head 
    the hat that you would take 
    and try to hold it far above 
    my reach knowing i could never get it 

  • Seasons

    Summer nights

    Taste of sweet smoke

    Laughter and kindness

    The generosity of strangers

    The hopes of tomorrow

    And the struggles of a past day


     

    Fall days

    Feel the heat on your back