Game Of Anger

Shoot the basketball
Miss
Try again
Airball
Repeat
Uggg!!!

Dribble 
Stolen
Go up for layup
Stuffed
Repeat
Grrrr

Argggg
Frustration flows within my blood
Competitive thoughts override my brain
Anger boils my bones
Volcanic feelings
Building up
Ready to explode
Clench fists
Dig fingernails into skin
Bite tounge
Try to hold back

Tears of frustration
Gather in the corner
Of my eyes
Don’t let them free
Cramp them down
Crying is weakness
Crying over a game 
Is just plain loony

Calm
Breath in
Out
Just a game

But negative emotions persist
Banging on the back of my skull
Clawing at my skin
Pounding on my chest
Worming their way back inside
WHY??
 
I’m so infuriated
At myself
For losing
For being mad
For crying
Most of all 
For weakness

Furious 
At the winner
For winning
For exposing my weakness

Why am I like this?
It’s just a game
I don’t want to feel this
But I do