I seek beauty, peace and happiness

Warming the skin,
Sun you sicken me
As with every loving branch of light you extend to me
Reminded am I of the warm love we once had
Together and close
Pure, 
Naive?

Issues, are being swirled up
From down there
you
Of which I‘d never known

Tissue, papers and papers
I‘d use
For you
If I hadn‘t been built

But my built doesn‘t permit
My letting you bring me down

For my build
Says that I deserve much better
Than what you called ours

And I know that
I am up for 
And only up for
A well-functioning relationship

And I don‘t need, to fix you
And I don‘t need, to carry you
Your weight is yours!
And I don‘t need to worry worries for you
That are yours to worry yourself!

Looking at my life
I see
That if this is who you are
You might not be the one
And maybe you should
Go, move on.
And what we had was great
I‘d never call it a mistake!
We grew
I grew
And here discovered
More of what I am
And who I‘m not
And what I like
And what turns me off

Moving away
I know
That I am better than before
I know now more of what I want!
Clearer to my mind it is now, that
I‘m a butterfly you cannot keep caught.

A butterfly that loves to “settle” 
To be around another
For good

But that restrained it can not be
And that chained it will never love
Any of you

For then it flees
Ripping those bonds of
Those slimy leaves wanting to stick to,
To cover, my skin

But I can‘t!
And not will
Ever remain under
Any cover
You silently place
Over my head

Without me

I will always escape
The unfree
For I seek beauty, and peace and happiness!