I try to trust you

I try to trust you.
smile even though I am hurting.
luagh even when the tears are just around the corner.
I know I am doing better then I have in a while.
The smiles come quicker and so does the laughter.
sometimes I even feel pretty.
I try to trust you,
because you make me smile,
because you make me laugh.
my tears only come now when I am alone. 
my heartbreak only shows itself when I remember.
I try to trust you,
because you make me forget.
make me feel like I am the only one in the room.
but still when I am alone the tears are threatening.
my mind tries to tell me to feel bad.
about oh so many things.
I try to trust you.