I'M SO TIRED OF WRITING ABOUT YOU

Read in between the lines

I'm so sick of it -

how I fall back into the same pattern

like I'm still a naive little kid

like I learned nothing

like as soon as you shoot me an email

that doesn't mean anything

instantly my biggest hobby is

refresh refresh

refresh 

I'm ashamed

I should be better than this

I thought I was 

I thought I knew the response would never come

I don't know why you wrote me

don't know why we're so out of sync on this

don't know what made you want to apologize

you said I didn't have to forgive you

yes I did

I have

I can't live my life with you around

can't fall in love

can't push through schoolwork

can't do it

a nosedive into torture

I'm a sucker for poetry and you're it

what made me so susceptible to you?

WHY CAN'T I STOP WRITING