letters

Each stanza is its own word. The first letter of each line is a different letter of the word. It is an acrostic poem.

Lots of different words

Everything that makes this poem my own

The world wouldn't have heard these thoughts without them.

Thinking of how to describe something perfectly

Every time, I find a way to make the readers understand

Rewording, retrying, everything will fit together in the end,

Something some won't ever understand.

Someday, I hope we have a chance

I can't imagine my life without thinking of him.

Luminous, his eyes look like sunshine on the riverbed after rain

All at once, the feelings flood my veins.

Silently, I beg for a moment where I can pretend it's just us.

Somehow, this time of day remains my favorite

Underneath the clouds, the sun paints the evening world with colors of warmth

Nothing can ever compare to this.

Spoiling the feeling of inescapable pain, filling me with sheer happiness.

Effecting the way the sky grows dark again, I stay in awe,

Till it drains from the vastness of our atmosphere.

Are you ever going to leave?

Me, oh, never.

Expecting the moment you stand and walk out the door.

Lesser, I am so much less than you are. 

I can't ever be a friend like you.

And I promise I won't be the one leaving.

Barely talking to me

Oh, how I do wish they would just say what they are feeling.

Yet they never do.

Somehow I still stay

Daily, I wonder if you like me.

And you sit behind me in class.

Many times, you look away when we make eye contact.

I wonder why moment feels like forever,

Although you probably don't even remember my name,

Nothing compares to the confusion I feel when I see you smile.

Comparison.

Old memories of dinosaur converse and fourth grade.

Opening the old wounds, the small scrapes from "ga-ga ball"

Pencil scraping across paper, you touch my hand.

Everything from your eyes to the way your nose scrunches when you smile.

Replaying every moment, the memories are missing your glances at her.

Any day now,

Betting you will turn around and switch up on me again

But I'm trying to be better,

Yelling, whispering, crying, maybe that'll make you want to be my friend again

Making me wish I were asleep

Overthinking, 

Maybe, though, it's all worth it

Daily arguments, stupid things that feel so big.

And I can't imagine a world with you gone, but it hurts when you're here.

Dangerous, I have to watch what I say.

Every day, I think about how much I love you.

Little do you know that I would give my life to save yours,

Lots of the things I have to do as your sister.

I want you to know that it's going to be okay someday.

Someday.

Gruesome,

I hear them talking

Relentlessly judging outfits and hair.

Loudly speaking unwanted opinions.

Somehow, I have fallen into the cliche that they have created.

Endlessly rephrasing the different words, just so they fit.

Never feeling like it's near enough, no one likes it, so why do I keep writing?

Done, that's it. I'm finished. Maybe I will just quit writing, I mean, it's not enough, so for what?