musings on boys (collection)

I hate that you have some sort of power over me

Not the love of your life

Not even sure you call me a friend

You have me crying every night 

Wondering what I should change

Would you love me 

If I looked more like her?

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I used to know this boy,

A dark-haired green-eyed psychopath,

He knew all the right things,

To make a girl wonder,

What it would be like,

If he called you baby.

I wonder now,

If he is all right,

If he is doing better than he was,

If his dreams were shattered,

Like my butterfly wings,

Built from a young girl's fantasies.

_________

he is like the wind

strong and untrustworthy

sometimes here 

sometimes a million miles away

his heart can't land on anyone

like a leaf in a whirlwind

i always get swept away

_________

Dear boy.

It's been a year now,

and I don't know,

if I will ever get over you.

My friends still ask how you are doing,

I'd like to say I know,

and all I can admit,

is that I wish I knew.