Only human- first of four poems that go together [they are fictional]

I miss the summer heat, and the love I once received, 

Before I turned

Seventeen. 

Sometimes I wish I could forget about last week, last month, last year, my past,

They were my other half, standing tall as I crumbled to the lowest I could. 

Now I sit, watching her sing lullabies to her newborn baby,

I can’t relate. 

She looks out the open window, glaring like she’s just another neighbor down the street.

In which I do not live. 

Others manage with this pain, that’s not subsiding. 

I’m waiting for love, 

Which dares not to come. 

Knowing it would be found, found out. 

The loose threads of my jacket weave their way into  the fist i’m making, 

There’s no point,

Believe me, if anyone should know, It’s me.


 

emi_art_now

NY

15 years old

More by emi_art_now

  • leaving the heart

    she takes the stairs, 

    her heels click clacking down the hardwood steps. 

    she turns the tarnished silver doorknob, 

    and the door creaks open. 

     

    before her sits a man. 

  • too far to hold

    I catch a glimpse. 

    from afar, 

    the shine of his silky hair in the golden sunlight

    his expression unreadable, 

    as if he's pondering something he'd never tell a soul. 

  • watching him

    Kathy watched out her window as Samuel left his apartment, 

    spit his gum on the ground

    and lit his cigarette. 

    the same as yesterday. 

    the same as every day.