Pulling Down

My act of courage?

I don't think myself a courageous person, but I think the most courageous thing I've ever done is convincing myself that I need to get better.
I'm not as good with words as some others here, but please bear with me.

I've always struggled with terrible thoughts. It was hard getting up in the morning sometimes. I couldn't drive myself to do anything.
I always thought myself incapable of love, unable to reach out and form connections. 
That's something I believed would never change.

But one night, one that feels like so long ago, I decided I would change.

I got a weight loss app. I started saying hi to people and starting conversations with people I didn't know.
I started trying harder in school. My grades went up. My teachers like me.
I haven't done anything to myself in so long, despite the fact that the thoughts do come back sometimes.
I help people the best I can, using experience of what I've been through to improve their lives too.

So I think my act of courage is pulling myself out of the pit that had entrenched me. 
Thank you for reading.

[From the Summer of Stories Challenge: Godin: Author Seth Godin says, “Art is a personal act of courage.” What is your own personal act of courage?]