questions

i've always wondered how
it feels to be dead.
does your body still ache
from the sudden nothingness?
or maybe you can't feel "nothing".

does the taste of dirt and 
life stay bitter on your tongue?
or does it fade away with time?

time, time, wonderous time,
of which we have so much of.
i don't like time. 
or maybe i just don't like change.

do you think about what
caused your flight from living?
or maybe who?

or do you try to forgive and
forget?
or maybe just forget?

i have so many questions, but
no one seems to know the answers.
i'm not sure i want to know
the answers, anyway.