The railroad

I followed the railroad home

with the wind and the earth beneath me and
the gilded stars dotted in the opaque sea
above, stars of pearl beads scattered 
across the floor, tied together 
with Mama’s old broken 
necklaces like starling’s eyes staring 
back at
me.

I followed the railroad home
with the stirring sea on my right and 
the faltering bits of city peeking through the
strawberry hills to my left, as the rain 
melted city lights into a watercolor
and soft dreams that 
came and
went

like the dream I had with the eight-year-old girl 
on the other end of the railroad, for a home not 
haunted by the everlasting smell of dead 
cigarettes and vodka, no longer having to play hide
and seek in the closet or asking, 
can I sleep over tonight again?
to her best friend

like the dream I had with the Ukrainian boy
on the other end of the railroad, for a home not 
cooked red from war, oil-stained walls charred 
black, traces of smoked pepper perpetually
suspended in the air

like the dream I had with the invisible stranger
on the other end of the railroad for a home not 
drowning in the land of tears, and if only I 
could paint the sky, I would reach into the 
glowing moon-bellies of bullfrogs and pull out 
crescents of their heart and paint firefly wings 
so that they would know what it feels like 
to fly.

If I could paint the sky, I would dip 
my fingertips in the orange sunset and 
smear my blood across the canvas
like it’s just chalk,
and I would unwind my sinews that you 
cast of iron and steel
to knit you a sweater because 
how could I hate you?

and maybe, only then,
only when you see the stains of blood 
lined against an angel’s wings,
only when you see fireflies falling,
plummeting from the sky like
a meteor shower, only then
will you see the rivers of dust and debris
bleeding at your feet.

If only I could paint the sky

but I walk along 
the railroad tracks, 
pebbles soundlessly, wordlessly 
weeping beneath my feet

across the frozen wasteland and wreckage of fallen stars

forever
following
them
home.




 

liebeslied

CA

17 years old

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