release

A hot tear sears my skin as it rolls down my cheek

Before she sees I quickly wipe it away

I thought we would be forever but there she goes and here I stay

I get to my feet and walk away slow

I am half of what once was whole

I want to spin around and call out her name

But that would set me back after how far I have came

I turn back after a while 

Half expecting to see her smile

The past few years flash through my mind

I try to convince myself to leave them behind

I continue on and drag my feet

And when I reach the river bed I take a seat

Shivering in the cool breeze

I toss in a rock along with my memories

The wind picks up speed

I watch a branch as along crawls a centipede 

The trees bend and creak

And fog covers up a mountain’s peak

The world seems light

As I let go of what I was holding on to so tight

I feel more and less like myself at the same time

I feel cleaner, like I’ve washed off a layer of grime

Now that I’ve learned life isn’t a chess game where I’m just a piece

I know she’s just a lantern that I can release