Soap

Your name is 

                          Like soap in my mouth,

My mind hasn’t

                          forgotten about last year.

My eyes still

                         taste the tears that fell because of you.

My heart sinks

                        When I am reminded of it all.

The soapy taste

Sends alarms through my body.

Don’t do this to yourself.

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I'm better than this. I'm better than this. I'm better than this.

Am I?

You say happy birthday to me. 

I nearly laugh from the shock.

Is this all a cruel joke?

I try to forget.

I try to forget.

I try to forget.

I really tried.

I talk to you, I feel like falling back into your arms. 

Crawling back to the asylum I escaped in April.

I’m so confused.

Soap. It’s all coming back to me. Foaming.

We talk again, but it doesn’t feel like you're an old friend.

    You hurt me. I can’t forget that. You. Hurt. Me.

                                             Go.

                                           Away.

Maybe we can be friends again.

Stop it.

I’ve changed for the better.

Don’t you remember what happened?

We don’t have to be strangers anymore.

Please, Amelia. Don’t do this to yourself.

You are like soap in my mouth.

Maybe I’m wrong.

Sorry.