Some days

I am someone who wonders if she will ever know. 

But someone who knows there can be a place for uncertainty too,

even though it isn't often valued.

Most people seem so confident,

like they know who they are,

but maybe I don't know.

Some days I am myself,

a person who laughs loudly at things that aren't very funny,

just because I like to laugh.

Some days I know I am someone who enjoys the presence of others,

someone who is happy to see the people I see every day.

Some days I know myself.

But some days,

I am tired.

I am weary of who I know myself to be,

I am someone who isn't ready to see anyone. 

I do feel sometimes,

like I am not truly laughing.

The sound is forced, 

and I wonder where the real me has decided to hide away.

I don't feel as happy when I see my favorite people.

It's not their fault.

Because some days,

I don't know.

I don't know who I am or where the real me is.

But,

most days,

I love to learn. 

I love to laugh.

And most days I am very much a people person.

I am going to have to learn to accept, that some days I won't know.

Because to have the good days,

I will have a few bad days.

But I will be okay with that,

because I know that sometimes,

it is okay to fake laugh.

It is okay to feel like you don't want to see people.

Because those uncertain days,

they are a part of me too.

Those days, 

have a place in who I am.

I'm not the good days,

when I feel myself.

And I'm not the bad days,

when I question everything about myself.

I am both,

and that's okay.