T

Tired.

worn out.

Stuck in daydreams,

so checked out.

It's been like this for months.

and getting worse in bumps and grunts.

the summer heat, it floods my mind

and all my fragile habits unwind.

my brain rewired

into a mental mess,

more disoriented than I'd ever thought id be

i've grown

impulsive,

distracted.

Degraded.

younger me would be repulsive.

i keep waiting for better days.

ones where I don't feel half asleep

or like I'm walking in a daze

but its been weeks

and all ive done

is fall apart.

i dont wanna work.

i dont wanna talk.

you may call me jerk

or as stubborn as a rock

but

i know

who i am i just

cant do

much

anymore