Technically, I’m an immigrant;
I wasn't born here.
Technically, I’m too young,
just shy of a year.
Technically, I’m inexperienced,
barely know the rudiments.
Technically, I’m a woman.
Technically, I’m half gay.
So I may act like I belong
but
technically,
I don't.
I nod my head like I understand
the gossip, the memes, the references …
and pretend to know what I’m doing
in each and every one of my classes
even though sometimes,
I just don't get it.
I am a teenager
who isn't on Instagram.
I am an “honors student”
who scores Cs on tests.
I am an athlete
who ditches sports for theater.
Sometimes, I wonder,
Am I really a swordfighter
with only four weeks of knowledge?
Am I really a poet
when I’m inactive more than I like to acknowledge?
And don't even keep up with the rhymes or meter?
Things couldn't be blurrier.
So technically, no, I don't belong
and I know it,
but
it’d be really great
if you could just ignore that fact,
and follow along
with the act.
Comments
This is so amazingly good. I know this feeling all too well, and sometimes it takes not belonging to find your place. :)
Thanks! Yeah I mean you can't just magically fit in even if you were meant for it and it indeed was your place. It's just hard when you feel like you're being disregarded or sightly rejected or downplayed just because of one small difference, though usually that is just the trick of the mind, but it does happen
This poem is amazing. I'm feeling this way right now and I keep thinking that no one understands this feeling of loneliness and that further isolated me. But after reading this, I know that I'm not going through this alone and that all of us are in this together and I really needed that reminder. Thank you so much for writing this because people need to hear and know they are not alone in this feeling because that further isolates them.
And to continue, I hope you know that your poem really has impacted me and made my day loads better and am looking forward to reading more of your poems!
Aw thank you, it's really good to know that. Wish you loads more better days :)
Feeling alone is hard, I'm sorry you feel this way and if you wanna talk about it I am here, but yes you are definitely not alone in this. It happens more often than you think, people talk about "fitting in" all the time. The advice I hear about it is "Don't worry about fitting in, just be yourself" but that is hard when you don't know what you're doing and don't want to seem clueless. At least that's how it works for me lol. Sometimes I wonder if I'm slightly autistic. Still good advice though
Truth is, no one 100% fits into any category, even if it looks like it on the outside. And everyone has to go through a "clueless" phase to get where they are now, but you can only get through it if you don’t let it discourage you. You will have to be the "clueless" one for a bit so it's important to ask questions, put in effort, and find a group that supports you, but don't beat yourself up for it. You're not broken
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