Too Heavy

I've known her from before I could breathe,

Since my life truly hung in the balance of the 

fleshy cords that strummed chords to my stomach

I've known her since the small 

particles connected to my flesh and moved my 

lips ever so slightly 

Alerting the world that I was here.

She's never faltered, though she's changed,

And I don't talk to her as much as I should,

It's far too painful.

The sinking feeling of months in between us

And state lines beneath us are much too heavy.

But I can't imagine this world without her light

And she may be the one soul I can look for when 

I'm lost among my unweeded garden of intrusive thinking

And unwelcome anxieties.

All I  can do is yell out her name 

And hope to see her blue eyes in the constellations 

above me at night,

And know she sees the same ones

Although we have lost each other over years

We always find eachother again 

And the time is mended quicker than

A needle and thread could stitch together

A small rip in a cotton blend.