Unlovable

What inherent flaw?

what celestial wrong?

missing ingredient?

failed experiment?

am I?

how am I so unlovable,

that no one comes to hold,

my sorry hand? 

I've never received a rose,

or wrapped-up secret note,

you're lovely and,

I think we would fit well together,

if only we both liked me better,

from August, October, December,

I've seen you when I see the weather,

in all the colors of the rainbow,

you're the only one I love, so,

why am I invisible?

caused me to be critical,

of myself,

of my flaws,

changed myself and can't recall,

who I was before you,

teach me to ignore you,

please,

in the same way you do to me,

I love you but you're blind and free,

my gaze rests on mirrors I see,

as I wonder what we could be,

I weren't unlovable me,