Forgive My Meek Heart

I’ve done it again

Please forgive me.

I’ve caught feelings,

I know not when or how

All I know is my favorite love songs now bleed his name

Echo the unshared pleas of my heart.

I’m familiar with how this ends,

Me hurt time and time again by my own heart’s expectations

But no matter how deep it cuts

How much of myself I give,

I catch the blade of feelings for those who’ll never do the same for me.

There’s no escape

For in this cruel, uncharitable world,

Music is my only peace,

But now every verse,

Every chorus reflects what I so dearly wish to say

What I so dearly wish was reciprocated. 

Perhaps if I played my music a little louder,

Drowned out the butterflies of my heart,

I’ll rid myself of this torture.

For my fears of the unspoken truth, the unknown

Is much greater of that to be gained

Or at least I convince myself it's so. 

            - Hillary Deschamps