what i need rely

a pounding heart
too loud in my ears
shaking fingers, twitching eyes
aching legs let me know i've stretched too much

gasping breaths cut short
a rile down below
gripped hands and a barely-let out
'nother breath keep me grounded

how everything is softer
when i look at my plants,
look at you
to know things are alright.

calmed heart,
only beats in my ears
when my fingers still and i'm down
when all i can feel is clothing

quiet smile,
fluttery goosebumps
hand (soft) held (tight)
lips against my cheek and hand

what i need rely
what i need
is you.
 

Abriatis

NY

YWP Alumni

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