That wasn't the plan

I should be studying.
I should be drinking overpriced coffee.
I should be stressing about finals.
I should be joking about grad trip.
I should be anywhere else.

I shouldn’t be quarantined. That wasn’t the plan.

I should be ditching and studying.
I should be laughing with friends.
I should be complaining about lunch.
I should be sneaking off to the greenhouse.
I should be anywhere else.

I shouldn’t be done. That wasn’t the plan.

I should be graduating.
I should be in music class.
I should be wearing a class of 2020 hoodie.
I should be doing senior pranks.
I should be celebrating.

I shouldn’t be grieving. That wasn’t the plan.

I should be counting down the days.
I should be applying to university.
I should be with the people I have come to love.
I should be revising.
I should be on campus.

I shouldn’t be on lockdown. That wasn’t the plan.

I should be saying goodbye.
I should be spending these weeks with friends.
I should be drinking expensive and bad coffee.
I should be sneaking into the lift.
I should be on the 6th floor with everyone else.

I shouldn’t have no closure. That wasn’t the plan.

chloen

YWP Alumni

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