Mar 05

I’m Fine.

“Are you ok?”
“I’m fine. It’s fine.”
“Obviously not. Why do people always say that?”
“Well what else am I supposed to say?”

How am I supposed to explain?
That I’m weak
That I’m broken
That I can’t deal with my own brain 

What am I supposed to say
To someone who’s had it so much worse than me?
I’m selfish
I’m looking for attention

I try to show people that I need help
And then say I’m fine when they ask.
I’m a terrible liar.

You don’t deserve this
You shouldn’t have to deal with me

I’m sorry
I’m sorry

I don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to deal
I don’t know how to stop
I don’t know how to talk

When my problem is I can’t speak
How am I supposed to explain?

I need your help but I don’t want it.
I want your help but I don’t need it.

You have other problems.
I’m a waste of time.

So leave me alone.
I can’t hurt you if I’m isolated.

Just leave me alone.
I’m too far gone.