IceGalaxy

after my hockey game
which we lost by 7 goals
i went home,
stared out my window. 
i have a collection of trees
that live outside my front door
and i stared at them, 
silently demanding answers to 

I am fourteen years old
And my life has changed
For better or for worse.
Though, in all honesty,
Aren’t all changes good changes?
I want to think so,
But I can’t anymore.
 
I don’t have a family.

if you remember me
but i'm scared of the answer. 
i want to ask
what you think of me
but i'm scared of that answer too. 
i want to ask
if you ever loved me
but i'm scared of that answer as well. 

I would never have made the mistake
that I did. I never would have said
that I loved you; never would have
fallen for your trap.

If life was a Disney+ movie, 
there would be no pandemic. 

a future with you
was all i could imagine
but look where we are
 

salt tears are 
sliding down my cheeks
in silver streaksyellow rays of 
bright happiness break through
the dark cage i've
trapped myself ini should be happy;
this is what i 
wantedi should be sad;