Inkpaw

Every one has felt lost
Like they are drowning in a sea of loneliness 
The icy cold 
Cutting right down into your bones
Something so sad
There are no tears
There is no pain
Just numbness 
Alone 

I find myself 
absentmindedly reaching 
my brain not processing 
mind off in another dimension
where everybody looks perfect
and even the tears that have been animated 
are beautiful 

oh 
no 
please
dont 
i didn't 
mean 
to put my words
on that page 
where 
you 
could read them. 
dont read them
i beg you 
let me explain my feelings

I fly on wings of shredded paper
and my fingertips are permanently ink-stained.
There is paint in my hair 
and holes in my jeans. 
I don't care though
cause in my mind what I wear doesn't matter,

shy 
not a word 
I'd use to describe 
me as I am today 

unless 
you were referanceing
my slight aversion 
to being my loud self 
when I meet a new person.